Today it was time (or, long overdue) to set the work schedule for the next 5 week period that starts in the beginning of April, and I discovered that I’ve counted the weeks incorrectly, which means that I will be off work for the concertina event.
Many times I have a hard time keeping up my inspiration for music, because most of our friends are beyond my level of playing, or because they play other music styles. Last year at the concertina event I felt like “coming home”. Meeting new folks who play concertinas, and who play Irish or English music, and play tunes of all levels, not only fast advanced tunes. Being able to play with other people. I loved it and I had a blast down there. So I was really looking forward to going, until I realised that I would be working that weekend. Now I’ve sent an e-mail to book the event.
Maybe I should clarify that my husband actually plays music as well, and we play similar tunes and many times together on guitars or guitar/mandolin or the likes. But lately he’s mainly been playing the melodeon, and when he plays the melodeon it’s only fast advanced fiddle tunes that he’s learned from a friend of ours who is more or less a professional musician. So well, we don’t have much in common there. I hope that we’ll manage to start playing more together again, if he ever gets back any inspiration to play Irish music, or bluegrass/oldtime.
Now for the next month I’ll totally be practicing the concertina. I’ve printed out tunes that we play in our session, I know many of them, but I’ve never really taken the time to learn the other tunes. Also, I really need to start learning to play in the key of D, to be comfortable with the scale, and be able to “find” tunes in D (find them on the concertina, that is) as easily as I do with tunes in G.
It’s good to have a goal with my playing, since lately I’ve been rather unfocused.
My guitar inspiration is back. The trick? New strings. I picked it up and thought it sounded dead. It’s interesting how DEAD a good quality instrument sounds when the strings are old. It’s the same with my mandolin. Well, I bought a set of strings and some other stuff from Strings & Beyond some time ago, so I had some Elixirs lying around. I put them on, which was a pain in the *** until I found a string winder we bought years ago.
Now after some tuning up and playing… ooh, it sounds good. I’m playing and singing some Irish ballads. The bad thing is that most of them make me cry… I guess I’m a little emotional after a very tough week at work, I’m rather worn out and those ballads make me think of Clonakilty and the people there. Maybe I should sing songs about whiskey instead of the sad songs about leaving Ireland, the precious beauty of it, and missing it forever.
I hope you peeps are doing well out there.
I was in church this morning, haven’t been there for ages and I’ve really missed it. There definitely is a point with what people say about having fellowship with other Christians. It’s not that going to church makes you a Christian, but being a Christian is so much easier when you have other Christians around you. The right Christians, that is. I’ve been very hurt by Christians in the past but this church is lovely and there are some lovely people there. The first time I was there it was like coming home, after many years of looking for a good church to go to.
My town is a very musical one, because of some kind of jazz club and a very active music school. It’s mainly jazz and classical music, but at least it’s music. And, for some reason, churches are always crowded by people with musical talent. I used to play and sing in church sometimes, but after my wrist injury some year ago I got out of the habit of playing and singing regularly as I used to do. Now, every time I go to church I get really inspired and usually pick up the guitar when I come home :). I was on my way to get a good routine with it before Christmas but then I got that really bad cold, and now I’m totally out of the good habit of playing the guitar every day.
How do you get back to good habits? I’ve sort of lost inspiration, although I have plenty of stuff I want to learn. I remember the first weeks with the guitar, I couldn’t stay away from it! Why am I not like that now? I’ll have to go back to the guitar and discover new things with it. I really love playing the guitar, it is the most “complete” instrument I’ve ever played. You can be a one man orchestra. Sing, play back-up, play melodies, all at the same time.. almost.
I’m a big fan of Lynn Morris and her band, and have a few of their CDs, I found an old one where there is a song named “Help me climb that mountain”, it’s a gospel song and I can totally relate to every single word in it. I sang it in church once. I came to think of it the other day, and sang the lines I could remember. Now I actually found it online… I couldn’t find the lyrics online back then. So maybe I’ll start working on it again, and add some little nice stuff on it that I wasn’t able to do before.
Well, maybe I still have some inspiration after all :).
Today I got the good news that I will get a permanent position at the palliative care unit. I’m so glad!! I didn’t worry about it particularly much before, but it feels good that I will stay there and that they want me there. My manager gave me so much good feedback about my work that I nearly blushed :). I really needed to hear that though. When work is tough and stressful, my self esteem gets down because I never think I do a good job, which in that situation isn’t my fault, but my brain seems to understand it differently.
The thing is this: If people think I’m good, I do a better job. So positive feedback is good for everyone..
Although work is very stressful, I like it there, and I’m glad to work in the field I’m passionate about. I love what I do, although I wish I could do it in more peace and quiet. We are very short staffed because nurses cost too much… Seriously, it’s a very sad country when the government doesn’t even want to spend money on terminally ill and dying people. But that’s the bitter truth.